I want more.

August 24, 2008 § Leave a comment

Time, that is.  Why are days always at least 8 hours too short?  At LEAST.  I need a minimum of four hours per day to set aside as Do-Nothing time.  And the hours keep ticking away…

No way am I adding that extra class.

By the way, I love my classes.  I love everything, almost all of the time.


More shiny new ideas…

August 10, 2008 § 1 Comment

Up til 4ish for the second night morning night in a row.  I don’t quite remember what was going on yesterday, but today… I’ve been obsessed with thinking about recitals.  I spent my phone shift at work tonight looking over my scores and putting together a rough program, as well as starting to freak out about how I’m going to make this all work in time.  Cautiously and casually mentioned its existence to a few co-workers during the past two nights, and their enthusiastic response has much encouraged me.  

Tonight down in the office, with my Chopin score sprawled open on the desk…
Demetri (manager):”What’s this?  Who is reading music?”
Me: “Oh… I am.”
Demetri: “What do you play?”
Me: “Piano.”
Demetri: “Oooh… I love piano!”

Awww, how does that not warm your heart?  Because seriously, he did look as though he genuinely, whole-heartedly loved it.

So yes, I’ve got one coming up in 11 weeks.  But after that?  What then?  What about all this other great music out there that I have got to play?  I’ve been YouTubing and doing research in my own iTunes library for the past 4 hours… I’ve decided that before I leave San Francisco/CA for Rhode Island (might as well throw all the nice, shiny, distracting ideas together to make one giant, conglomerate Uber-Fantasy) or whatever big, exciting thing comes next in my life, I need to do at least one more recital.  One non-rushed recital, fantastically done, only music that I want to play, lots of it, and done right—all memorized and as polished as I can make it.  Man oh man.  I wish I had a real piano in my room (not one like the ones in the UCD practice rooms) and neighbors/roommates who didn’t care.  I’m kind of wanting to pull an all-niter (does that word apply if it’s not for school work or wild partying?) to start getting things done, and I feel this awkward blend of exhaustion and infinite energy.  

Mania, anyone?


August 9, 2008 § Leave a comment

Oh August 9.  Have you come already?

Let’s see what we have here:

  1. Have I been practicing?  Check.
  2. Have I been fundraising?  At least 200 people have been emailed, and approximately 3% have responded with donations, so:  Check.
  3. Have I been running?  Check!  Well, today I made the bittersweet, fatigue-induced discovery that maybe I can’t quite pull 2-hour runs out of absolutely nothing like I’ve been known to brag, but give me another week, I say… give me another week.
But I call this progress.  Oh yes oh yes I dooooooo la la la la.

Today at work, I saw that a co-worker of mine had an Academy of Art catalog with her.  “How cute”, I thought to myself, “she’s still in that phase.”  Because honestly, why would anyone want to pay lots of money to go to art school in San Francisco when you could instead pay lots of money to go to art school in Rhode Island??  No, I haven’t even been to Rhode Island yet, but a girl can dream, can’t she?

Seriously, whenever anyone mentions the East Coast, I get slightly wistful as I recall being there for those 4 months at Longy almost a year ago.  I want to go back.  I want to see snow.  I want the chill in the air, the crispness, the knowing that I’m not in California.  I’ve stretched my legs a little bit, and I’m itching to stretch them just a little bit more.  Luckily, I seem to be saving money at a tidy little rate, so we’ll see how it goes….

In the meantime, NYC on November 2nd!  The only con is that Jason Mraz is performing in Berkeley on the exact same day as the Marathon, but alas.  NIN in less than a month should be more than sufficient for a little while 🙂

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