More shiny new ideas…
August 10, 2008 § 1 Comment
Up til 4ish for the second night morning night in a row. I don’t quite remember what was going on yesterday, but today… I’ve been obsessed with thinking about recitals. I spent my phone shift at work tonight looking over my scores and putting together a rough program, as well as starting to freak out about how I’m going to make this all work in time. Cautiously and casually mentioned its existence to a few co-workers during the past two nights, and their enthusiastic response has much encouraged me.
Tonight down in the office, with my Chopin score sprawled open on the desk…
Demetri (manager):”What’s this? Who is reading music?”
Me: “Oh… I am.”
Demetri: “What do you play?”
Demetri: “Oooh… I love piano!”
Awww, how does that not warm your heart? Because seriously, he did look as though he genuinely, whole-heartedly loved it.
So yes, I’ve got one coming up in 11 weeks. But after that? What then? What about all this other great music out there that I have got to play? I’ve been YouTubing and doing research in my own iTunes library for the past 4 hours… I’ve decided that before I leave San Francisco/CA for Rhode Island (might as well throw all the nice, shiny, distracting ideas together to make one giant, conglomerate Uber-Fantasy) or whatever big, exciting thing comes next in my life, I need to do at least one more recital. One non-rushed recital, fantastically done, only music that I want to play, lots of it, and done right—all memorized and as polished as I can make it. Man oh man. I wish I had a real piano in my room (not one like the ones in the UCD practice rooms) and neighbors/roommates who didn’t care. I’m kind of wanting to pull an all-niter (does that word apply if it’s not for school work or wild partying?) to start getting things done, and I feel this awkward blend of exhaustion and infinite energy.