September 24, 2010 § Leave a comment
1. I think I kind of have ADD.
2. It is so nice to have a functioning kitchen. I cannot get over it. I am actually eating healthy foods again.
3. Glee lifts me out of my moments of despair. What would I do without Glee?
4. First xc meet tomorrow. I should start doing weights at the gym.
5. Design design design. Design design design design.
6. There is a way to balance school and being healthy. I know it’s there somewhere.
September 22, 2010 § Leave a comment
I’m running a 5k this Saturday with the New School XC team.
I haven’t run since this past Saturday. I have also yet to run with the New School XC team. Well, stranger things have happened.
I haven’t been running, period. I’ve been spending all of my time in class or working on assignments, or lying around half brain dead from lack of sleep. It’s a struggle and I’m glad to have it, but there must be way to find a better balance. It’s Week 4 and my current habits seem unsustainable. It feels like there’s an endless amount of things that need to get done, and it’s overwhelming unless I can get myself to stop multi-tasking and maintain staunch focus instead.
There’s so much that I need to prove. That I can meet the same standards that ***** does; that my focus on my work will make ***** hereby inconsequential to me. That the Katrina who quit Longy quit for good reason, and not because she was a quitter. That my presence on this planet and in this society is worthwhile because of what I am able to contribute intellectually. Today when I presented two of my type posters in crit, I was met with blank stares and general silence from my classmates. Best feeling in the world. But you don’t get better unless you stumble and fall, and I am determined to sweat and bleed as much as it takes because mediocrity is unacceptable and indecision is not an option.
You can’t design in a vacuum, and you can’t be a designer without being a real person and having a life. Somehow, I will find a way to get more sleep, and stop succumbing to junk food when I am stressed and tired, and fit in a decent weekly mileage because without it I’m just not at my best. There’s a quote in one of my design books by Mao Tse-Tung that says, “Never begin an important design project unless you have had at least eight hours’ sleep followed by a nutritious breakfast.” I pointed to it and laughed with another classmate yesterday evening, because we are all working our butts off and downing the caffeine trying to keep up. But there is a way to achieve a better balance than I have now, and I am determined to find it without sacrificing my schoolwork.
Ironic that I am up at this late hour as I am writing this. Well, what can you do?
September 19, 2010 § Leave a comment
I decorated my new room with some of these lovely design tips from a site called GoodFuckingDesignAdvice.com. That site is equally as delightful as the similarly blunt WhatTheFuckShouldIMakeForDinner.com.
I’m panicking because it’s almost Monday and there’s a whole lot to get done before then, but at least I still have a little over 24 hours until my next class. Also, I love our new apartment and our shower drain is now unplugged, which is absolutely delightful. (I was actually excited to shower at the gym yesterday. I am never excited to shower at the gym.) I love coming home to this place. When I make the walk from the subway to our little street, this simple wave of relaxation and pleasure slowly seeps into me, and I feel cheery and rejuvenated and content.
Anyway, I think it is important to remind myself at this moment that failing is an important part of learning, and that it shouldn’t make you quit. Quitting should come from other reasons, like extreme unhappiness, or unhealthiness, or black dank death that eats away at your soul. But not failure. Failure should lift you higher.
One of my design teachers has forbidden me from using illustration in my design work in her class anymore this semester. I was a tiny bit outraged at first, but once I emailed her about it and finally started to see her reasoning, I instantly felt much better. Gotta love open communication. The thing is, she also suggested that I might feel more comfortable in the Illustration department, which opened a whole new can of crazy in my head. Why am I paying so much when I’m still not certain what I want to do? But is she right? Am I investing time and money into the wrong field? Do I know what graphic design is? Do I know what I really want to do?
But never mind all that. I’ve given myself an hour to freak out and now I’m done. This is an exercise in expanding my horizons as a designer and as a way that I develop concepts and solutions, so fucking count me in. (Sorry, these signs posted on my wall are making me want to implement that word much more frequently into my everyday vocabulary. I’ve got 7 of them.) It’s true, I have been boxing myself in and leaning on one particular skill set of mine a little too much. Crutches like these, as I’ve learned from having perfect pitch while being a music student, can be more harmful than helpful. I’m certainly not going to quit until I’ve given it an honest go, and at the very least, I can perhaps always try to be a more illustrative-minded designer like Milton Glaser or James Victore. There’s certainly nothing wrong with that.
September 14, 2010 § Leave a comment
Hello world! I feel like I’ve had no time for anything but sucky entries lately, but things are getting busy and a little hectic. I’ve an apartment move coming up on Friday, which is a huge relief but a lot of work; and Parsons is starting to pile on the assignments and expectations, but I’m jumping into it gladly and am now so thankful that I did not do anything stupid like try to add an 8th class or get a job or grab an internship—these seven classes will be plenty. Also, the $7/day challenge is moot. I have other things to worry about, but soon I will be able to cook and make sandwiches to bring to school on a regular basis (such a luxury!).
That’s the cliff-notes version of my life right now. In place of better personal updates, for the next while I’ll be posting the progress I’m making on my web design project for class. That will be far more interesting anyway.
So for my Interactive/Web class, we have to create a website for a local establishment near where we live. I chose Rose and Joe’s Italian Bakery, and quaint little hole in the wall full of yummy treats that’s just by my subway stop.
Here is my Moodboard and here is my Creative Brief. I was going for imagery suggested by the words home, welcome, familiar, yours, nostalgic, comfort, local gem, secret, homemade, casual, grandma’s, variety, dependable, neighborhood, community.
September 7, 2010 § Leave a comment
Hello, Insomnia. It’s good to see you again.
I’ve been in New York for almost a month and in Ridgewood for just over two weeks. I drink coffee now, and I drink it black. I also drink iced tea. (Maybe this is no big deal to you, but to me these new developments are very strange.) I did homework in a bar with free pizza and wifi in Union Square a couple nights ago. We finally got a working fridge this week and actual mailbox access today. But our little kitchen visitors are still around despite our efforts on various fronts. So we keep all of our food in the fridge instead of the cabinets, including Saltines and multivitamins and unopened boxes of mac and cheese–we are taking no chances. We are falling a tiny bit in love with a particular neighborhood in Astoria and cautiously hoping to jump ship soon while taking a third roommate on board. And I am wondering what it would be like to train with a cross country team again, just 3 days a week.
I am excited for tomorrows.